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I am plain spoken and say what I see, this gets me into a lot of trouble, I am kind and generous beyond normal sometimes and care deeply about my environment and world, my two sons keep me busy and focused most of the time and I have a very busy social network filled with some of the most amazing people possible. I am a student who wishes to teach other adults one day and hope to be successful in transforming individuals one at a time. I am a bahai and a very spiritual being.

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Sunday, 21 September 2014

Is this for me?

Ok so after two weeks of the PECT course I feel very anxious and nervous about my life choices. I am apprehensive if this is the right path for me or have I made a big mistake? The overwhelming feeling of failure (as I have learnt today is a barrier to learning) has got me into a state where I want to turn and run and never look back. After speaking to a few of my friends who have become educators it seems apparent that a feeling of not knowing what you are doing is normal when you first start but it doesn't make it any easier for me right now.




I keep thinking if I didn't care if I was going to be successful within the role or if it didn't matter to me that students do well then that would be a strong indictor that this wasn't for me. But given the facts that I do worry and care, surely shows that I would be suited to this field of work. This complicates things further. I am in panic that my micro teaching will be a blur and no one will have learnt anything at all and that I will feel pure anxiety about my abilities even though I know I am a great planner and will have the session planned methodically. So I decided  to investigate how other trainee educator's have felt to see if I can recognise any of the insecurities that lie within myself.
I found a very useful forum which enables you to have contact with others who are in the same situation and it has a live q & a facility which I found to be very helpful.  There is a  site which has links to the blogs of other trainee educators to. I will keep this thread running for my own purposes and use it as a tool for reflection to hopefully enhance my own experience which in turn may one day be used to inspire others. For now I am happy to research the internal way I feel and the external world in which I now find myself, which is all new and strange.
I also found this Ted talk which made me feel so much better !




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